The Dragon Lady's Journey

First a quick question, What do you want to hear about? If it has to do with the Mind, Body, or Spirit, I am game for taking it on and researching. I will steer clear of politics, so don’t ask. I have been meandering the last few weeks for obvious reasons, but if you would like me to delve deeply into a topic and do several days in a row, I can do that. If you don’t ask in a comment or via text, you are stuck without whatever catches my fancy.
Today, I’m going to delve into emotions a little bit. As you can imagine I am a flood of emotions right now. Pain and dependency has a habit of doing that. I have had people turning up and showing up big time, which makes me so grateful. At the same time, I have been extremely independent for most of my 50+ years, and so having to ask and rely on others for help makes me extremely uncomfortable. There are only a few people I am willing to allow a glimpse behind my thick wall, and only one that I am working on allowing full access. Why am I so closed off? Oh, and if you know me personally, you may say “Tiffany, closed off? She is a huge personality that is constantly talking.” That is true, but do I really share my inner workings, or do I constantly talk about all the outward things? Is it perhaps a big facade to hide the truly scared little girl inside? 🤔 I digress.
Just a little over 2 years ago, I started really looking at my relationship patterns and why I am alone. I started listening to Podcasts, and reading psychology based self-help books. I started really unpacking my vulnerability, my sense of being “good enough,” my issues with relationships and intimacy, all that stuff that we shove deep inside and hide from even ourselves, much less our closest companions. Perhaps you could say I really started to examine my “Ego” and “Superego” in a Freudian concept. Have you ever truly studied Freud’s concepts of self? I’m not sure that he was that far off, perhaps he didn’t go deep enough, but was he wrong? Let’s take the next few days to look at his concepts of Id, Ego, and SuperEgo, perhaps the old theory might shed some light on the current issues. https://www.verywellmind.com/the-id-ego-and-superego-2795951

Have a wonderful day, It’s Friday! 💞